8DarkAngel8

Hello hello! It's been a while huh? Two years, wow.

I haven't been posting for so long and I sincerely apologize to everyone but life has just been happening and I thought maybe I should give you guys an explanation as to why I haven't been active. 

A lot of things happened in the past two years, but I'll skip some of the personal experiences and try to explain the situation right now. It's not anything drastic or anything, but just hear me out. 

A few years ago, especially during the time I've been active, I believed that I would be in the arts department in the future, drawing and making art etc. I really thought it was my future to be honest, but later on I thought long and hard about it. It didn't exactly make me happy, especially when I had advanced art in highschool. It felt like people kept telling me what to create and there was just so much pressure and standards I had to meet to be "successful". I didn't want to hate drawing and art. If I had pursued that dream, I would just continue to hate everything I do and just hate myself. Art was my escape in reality. By going to an art course, art would become part of my reality and that isn't really something I wanted to happen. After all the contemplation, I decided to take a pre-med course, which kind of explain the lack of time to post anything. Don't get me wrong, I haven't stopped drawing, at least not completely. There have been sketches and doodles here and there but it hasn't been my priority anymore. I started college last year and it has been very stressful, considering the fact that I'm not exactly a science person at the beginning of the school year, but I later on learned to love and enjoy it actually. 

I chose to take the course biochemistry and it has consumed my life to be honest, especially since I wasn't strong in chemistry in highschool hahah. At first I thought this course wasn't for me, but as time went by, I felt like I belonged. I began to feel like I was where I am supposed to be. Sure there have been multiple breakdowns but not to the point I started to hate what I did and what I am learning. When I was in art classes, I tend to get frustrated when I didn't know what to do or how to do certain things. I feel like I'm beginning to find who I am. I'm only 19, things and situations could change, but I feel like I'm walking on the right path.

I won't be making anymore promises that I will be posting anything here but I will try my best to post a sketch when I find the time. They might even be drawings that I did during the time I haven't been active so it might not be a recent drawing, but I don't think that matters right? But like I said, I won't be making promises anymore. The posts might not be the best quality but the whole point of this website is to share art that the artist is proud to create, not just to please other people. If people don't like what I do, the drawings I make are for myself, for my own happiness. **This is a message I'd like to share. You have to remember that everything you do is for yourself. You make yourself happy because you matter. Don't let the negative people get to you, they help you get stronger so love yourself** 

I hope that you guys understand, I apologize for the promised I could not keep. Thank you for being a part of my journey here on deviantart, I hope you guys enjoyed my work and stay even if I don't post as much as I did before. Thank you for pushing me to become a better artist. 

Much love, 
Monique

Hey guys! It's been a while '^_^ 

I just wanted to quickly say thank you to those who wished me a happy birthday irl or here, it really made my day <3 I just want to hug you all ugh really 

It's been a bad week for me this week, as in reeeeeallly bad and the fact that people wished me a happy birthday today made me really happy and made me feel special inside because people are congratulating me for being alive basically


Anyways, thank you guys, and I love you all soooo soooo sooooooooooooo much <3 Thank you for sticking around with me for so long, I really don't know where I'd be without you guys <3 I wish you all happy birthdays, future or past, and thank you!!!! <3

• (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ～『✧~*ABOUT YOU*~✧』
• 1. Are you more feminine or masculine?
• I'm kind of both? Like I can be very very very tomboyish and very girly, it's a thing with me
• 2. Are you tall or short?
• I'd like to say tall but I'm short (fun-sized)
• 3. What's your favorite color?
• ORANGE.
• 4. What do you love about yourself?
• Everything. lol just kidding well to be honest, I have no idea. I actually don't know what I love about myself but I'll just say I like my hair hahaaaaaaa
• 5. What's your greatest flaw?
• I have a super low self-esteem
• 6. Do you see yourself differently than other people describe you?
• YES, very much.
• 7. What are you really, really good at?
• Singing in the shower like I have the X-Factor
• 8. What's something you're bad at, but love?
• Singing
• 9. What's something people have tried to force you to do?
• Drinking vodka, thankfully I only drank one shot and went home immediately
• 10. How do you spend your free time?
• With my best friend <3
• 11. Describe the way you dress in one sentence.
• Fucking retarded.
• 12. Have you ever gotten your nails professionally painted?
• Ain't nobody got time for that.
• 13. What is the most insulting thing anyone has said to you?
• "You don't appreciate anything." Fuck you man, I appreciate things, just not the thing you did to me.
  
• 14. Favorite game?
• Zelda waddup
• 15. What color is your hair?
• It's originally black but I've been coloring it lighter brown

• (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ～『✧~*PHILOSOPHY*~✧』
• 16. Do you believe in god?
• Yeah, but I'm not like those people who are very much into but I believe in him
• 17. Is men's rights a thing?
• Human's* stupid typos
• 18. Does love really exist?
• Why wouldn't it
• 19. Can science explain everything, eventually?
• There's always an explanation to everything, always, nothing's just magic (except for popcorn man like wow that's magic to me)
• 20. Are we raised into what we love, or do we come to love it based on how we were raised?
• Personally, I wasn't raised to love anything, just raised to love everything that I have and experienced
• 21. How do you feel about the school system?
• It's bullshit, they teach us bullshit and things we don't really need to know like how do you pay taxes I don't have a fucking clue
• 22. Do you believe in fate/destiny?
• Nah, I believe that we choose what we do with ourselves, not anybody else
• 23. What is art?
• it's everything, it's my life
• 24. Do we define ourselves, or does our past?
• We do, our pasts are just lessons and challenges we had to overcome which helps us define ourselves depending on our answers
• 25. What happens after we die?
• Other people's lives goes on 
• 26. Do humans matter--tiny specs on a floating piece of rock in a solar 27. system in a galaxy in an infinite universe?
• Everything and everyone matters, it's what keeps us balanced
• 28. Is there good in everyone?
• Yeah, but there's always a bad too, balance my friend. Except if you're a really bad psychopath who kills for fun, then something's wrong
• 29. Does apathy really exist?
• Yeah I guess, I mean I'm pretty apathetic about things I'm not interested in 
• 29. Is human life only valuable because our society makes it?
• No, every human life has a reason why they're here. To party.
• 30. How do you feel about society, the vague "they" blamed for everything?
• Honestly, I think society is what destroys us such as society's views on girls for example and how we have to get into the latest trends and starve ourselves to be perfect, like yo, please stop, you're all beautiful. Guys as well get the shit from society with appearances and all the pressures that they have to have. We all have problems with society but it really isn't all their fault, we follow them and so it's our fault as well as theirs.

• (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ～『✧~*LOVEY-DOVEY PREFERENCE STUFF*~✧』
• 31. What gender do you prefer?
• I'm at the stage in life where I over think these things so I personally don't know and don't really care about relationships atm
• 32. What's the first thing you notice about someone?
• Their voice, I have a thing for hearing voices I don't know don't judge
• 33. Could you love someone you found ugly?
• No one's ugly in my opinion I think everyone's good looking but there are those that I see that are beyond good looking in my personal opinion like attracted to 
• 34. Favorite hair color?
• Idk why but I'm in love with light colored hair
• 35. Favorite eye color?
• Light colors like green or yellow
• 36. Ideal height?
• Anyone taller than me, just not twice as tall as me that would be awk
• 37. Describe, personality-wise, what your ideal boy/girlfriend would be like?
• Fun, funny, someone I can tease, gamer (fo sho), athletic so I have someone to play with, artist, imaginative, thinks out of this world, loves to cuddles (fucking love that shit), anime lover as well we can fangirl, guitarist/ musician
• I was just saying stuff at the top of my head that I like idk
• 38. Describe, appearance-wise, what your ideal boy/girlfriend would be like?
• Tall, someone who bathes/ clean (who knows, some people might not) idk I'm not more into the appearance wise but if you have any sort of accent, I will fall for you so fast omg
• 39. What do you look for--brains or looks?
• I love brains man, I'd go zombie for brains (looks are good too I guess but more into brains, I don't want to be with an idiot -___- I need a person with common sense)
• 40. Could you fall in love online?
• It's possible, I mean I fell for a lot of anime characters and actors
• 41. How much of an age gap can you handle?
• 1-3 or the same age but that's as far as I can go and I'd prefer to be the younger one
• 42. How would you introduce yourself on a blind date?
• "Hey, I'm Monique, do you like anime?" (that's how I actually introduce myself to people)
• 43. Could you forgive a cheater?
• Forgive yes, allow to date me again, no. They had their chance, I'm much more better than that. Not being arrogant or egotistical, just being honest.
• 44. Is lying about something serious as bad as cheating?
• I personally hate lying, I try not to lie that much so people kind of hate me because of my blunt honesty.
• 45. Right now, you could call the person you like/love (if you aren't dating/engaged/married already), or show up at their front door, and just confess or kiss them or whatever. What's stopping you?
• If I liked someone atm, the thing that's stopping me are my parents cause they're really strict about dating and relationships and say that I can start dating at 30 (but I'll start after highschool -___- 30 is just ridiculous) 

Hey guys! I'm so sorry i haven't been active (not that it's something that never happens) but every single time I am, I really do feel bad ( I want to be active but yet again, more drama has happened and school also started. BUT I am still drawing and I'm in IB Art HL class now so every now and then I'll try to put up the projects I do in class and on my sketchbook. I also have a few things from summer that I haven't posted up yet for various reasons but I'll try better to post more things up. 

Yeah, my tablet's wire is messed up and I don't know what to do with life and I don't have a scanner here so double sob