Thank you

Hello hello! It's been a while huh? Two years, wow.

I haven't been posting for so long and I sincerely apologize to everyone but life has just been happening and I thought maybe I should give you guys an explanation as to why I haven't been active. 

A lot of things happened in the past two years, but I'll skip some of the personal experiences and try to explain the situation right now. It's not anything drastic or anything, but just hear me out. 

A few years ago, especially during the time I've been active, I believed that I would be in the arts department in the future, drawing and making art etc. I really thought it was my future to be honest, but later on I thought long and hard about it. It didn't exactly make me happy, especially when I had advanced art in highschool. It felt like people kept telling me what to create and there was just so much pressure and standards I had to meet to be "successful". I didn't want to hate drawing and art. If I had pursued that dream, I would just continue to hate everything I do and just hate myself. Art was my escape in reality. By going to an art course, art would become part of my reality and that isn't really something I wanted to happen. After all the contemplation, I decided to take a pre-med course, which kind of explain the lack of time to post anything. Don't get me wrong, I haven't stopped drawing, at least not completely. There have been sketches and doodles here and there but it hasn't been my priority anymore. I started college last year and it has been very stressful, considering the fact that I'm not exactly a science person at the beginning of the school year, but I later on learned to love and enjoy it actually. 

I chose to take the course biochemistry and it has consumed my life to be honest, especially since I wasn't strong in chemistry in highschool hahah. At first I thought this course wasn't for me, but as time went by, I felt like I belonged. I began to feel like I was where I am supposed to be. Sure there have been multiple breakdowns but not to the point I started to hate what I did and what I am learning. When I was in art classes, I tend to get frustrated when I didn't know what to do or how to do certain things. I feel like I'm beginning to find who I am. I'm only 19, things and situations could change, but I feel like I'm walking on the right path.

I won't be making anymore promises that I will be posting anything here but I will try my best to post a sketch when I find the time. They might even be drawings that I did during the time I haven't been active so it might not be a recent drawing, but I don't think that matters right? But like I said, I won't be making promises anymore. The posts might not be the best quality but the whole point of this website is to share art that the artist is proud to create, not just to please other people. If people don't like what I do, the drawings I make are for myself, for my own happiness. **This is a message I'd like to share. You have to remember that everything you do is for yourself. You make yourself happy because you matter. Don't let the negative people get to you, they help you get stronger so love yourself** 

I hope that you guys understand, I apologize for the promised I could not keep. Thank you for being a part of my journey here on deviantart, I hope you guys enjoyed my work and stay even if I don't post as much as I did before. Thank you for pushing me to become a better artist. 

Much love, 
Monique